Do you know the feeling when 2.000 angry people start charging at you because their f*cking club lost from the stronger one? Confession of the police officer Tanja who had enough of it
Confession of the officer Tanja from Croatia won't leave anyone feeling indifferent
Croats are often bitter on police, and the policewoman Tanja thinks that the reasons are mostly unjustified. She revealed for Zagreb.info the way she was hurt with prejudice, insults and laughing she sees all the time.
This is her entire confession.
"All of you who said that Police is doing nothing, all of you who said that they are taking bribes, that they are thieves, corrupted, mafia... LISTEN TO ME VERY CAREFULLY!
Do you know what it feels like to walk in wet streets while cold sets on your face?
Do you know what it feels like to feel the first rain, frost, snow, while you are outside in the night, dressed in the clothes they call uniform that comes from China, or if we are lucky enough, from some domestic manufacturer with a fabric of worst quality?
Do you know what it feels like to see a man who hanged himself, and to grab his legs and to cut his rope while you watch his dead face?
Do you know what it feels like to take someone's body out of a crushed car?
Do you know the feeling of watching a man in the eyes who was murdered or the eyes of the murder?
Do you know the feeling of watching underage children who are waiting for police somewhere in snow, freezing, to come and to pick up the drunk father so we can take him to prison and to patch the wounds they got from the same drunk father?
Do you know the feeling of talking to a rapped girl and to give her hope for better tomorrow and that there are good people?
Do you know what it feels like to watch an 80-year-old woman in the eyes who was beaten and harassed by her only son?
Do you know the feeling of standing with 20 colleagues while 1.000 to 2.000 angry people start charging at you because their f*cking club lost from a stronger one?
Do you know the feeling of coming home from the second shift and washing of the clothes soaked in the blood of the recently deceased man while your soul is tearing apart because you couldn't save him? You are rushing to wash and to try that clothes so it can be clean and ironed because that's the way you have to look like for god's sake, and you have no other wardrobe.
Do you know of the feeling when you are stopping a vehicle and the driver bends to take driver's license and registration, and you are tense because you don't know if he will give you documents or a gun?
Do you know the feeling of returning the safety pin in a bomb because some angry idiot took it out in front of other people and he wanted to kill them all?
Do you know what it feels like when you see that all and when you think you've become indifferent, and they you see changes on yourself and you realize that you are not the same anymore, that you went completely crazy?
Do you know what it feels like when criminal damages some of your private property because he is angry at you for doing the right thing and for cuffing him for what he did?
Do you know what it feels like when you return home and you can't sleep at nights because you don't know how will you pay for all of the loans, how will you buy books for children, firewood for the winter from the charity you get when you receive a prize because you lived through everything above and you keep reliving it again and again?
I know all of that as well as those who wear the blue wardrobe you mock and make fun of.
It hurts us! It hurts us that people, Great people you laugh at, protect your lives, the lives of your dearest and they give their lives for you.
Your parents love you, your sons, daughters, wife, husband, family, but no one of them didn't put their life on the line so you can be safe and free, but there are people who are giving their everything, and they get so little, only the laughing in return".